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Am I that bad, that I am not werth trying to hook up with?

Monday, June 29th, 2009

Hello there everyone reading this. I know that I haven’t posted in quite some time, and I am sure that there are some people that may not like this intery, but I just feel that

it needs to be done, and said. I just have one really good question here, and I want you to understand that I am not tryingto

sound conseeded, or something like that when I write this.  Why is it that women only want assholes, or men that treate them

wrong, and pass by the men that would treat them right?  let me explain this one, and then I think you will se wair I am

going with this one.

lets start it off with a relationship I was in last year.  the first six months, that we talked, we hadn’t met, but things

seems so grate. We had lots in common, we could talk about anything, and we did talk so much. Anyways, I get there, and for

the most part, things were so wonderful, I thought I had finally found “the one”.  Well, a few things went wrong, and were

said that shouldn’t have been said.  I ended that relationship, cause I really wanted to salvage the friendship her and I

had.

So since then, I have been trying to continue to try to find the right one for me.  I am not the type that gives up, or

anything like that. I just dust myself off, and keep trying. kind of like riding a bike. You fall off, you dust yourself

off, and then you get right back on, and try it again.

Anyways, lets discuss the next situation.  someone local.  I met her, we clicked, and I thought about “chasing” her.  well,

the problem here is she was with an asshole prire, and someone that treated her like shit and she still has to live with him

cause they are in a lease together.  the bad thing is that he holds the child they have together over her head, saying things

like “if you leave me, I will take him away”.  without trying to fight the situation, she just lets him continue to treate

her like shit. they are not dating, but she still lets him run her life.  I just don’t get it.

lets move onto the most recent person.  yet again, another local person.  This person I have known for a little while, and

she seems pretty nice.  I would like to get to know her better.  even jennifer tried to somewhat hook her and I up.  she gave

a couple reasons why she won’t even consider it and I would like to shoot them all down right here.  at least this is how I

feel, maybe I am just strange, weird, take your pick, but personally, I think these reasons are just excuses.

1.  he is too old.  now this one, she was just joking around, but I still want to shoot it down anyway.  age in my openion is

just a number. if you fall in love with someone and they are lets say 12 years older than you, you can’t just say no it won’t

happen. they are too old. again, I state, age, is, just, a, number!  like I said, this wasn’t her real reason, but I just

thought I would shoot it down anyway. call it practice if you want.

2.  he is a good friend, and I don’t want to lose the friendship, if it don’t work.   well, yet again, I can shoot this one

down.  a few of my x-girlfriends, and I are still friends. we have managed to salvage the friendship  the way I see it is if

you can’t salvage the friendship, then something happened that was so bad, that the friendship is not able to be salvaged,

but it would have to be pretty bad for this to happen.  if it is just that the relationship didn’t work, you can still

salvage the friendship. I know, I have done it a couple times.  so this reason is shot down in my book.

3.  he is just not my type.  ok, now most of you are going to say how can he shoot this one down. I can this way. she don’t

know me that well in the first place.  she don’t know my likes, my dislikes, how I am on a daily basus, how I treat a woman,

and a host of other things like that.  her and I have never sat down and really talked. so how can she even say that I am not

her type if she don’t really know me? 

I think that I have come to a conclution, that most women want someone to treat them bad, they want cheeted on, they want

hurt, weather it be physically, or verbally, or emotionally.  It might be all they know, they have dated too many people that

have treated them this way, so they feel that is all they deserve.  lets look at some people I know, including family

members, I know that they seem to be this way. not that they want these thinhgs in life, I think I said that wrong, but I

think they are just so used to it that they just don’t know how to handle someone that would treate them right.  someone good

comes along, and it scairs them.

I just wish that a woman would give me a chance.  I am not saying I am perfect.  not by any means, however, I would like to

think that I treat a woman pretty well.  I look out for them, take care of them when I can, talk with them. joke with them,

make them breakfast in bed, (although not every day), coffee in bed, (if they drink coffee), cuddle with them, hug, and kiss

them, and generally treat them with love, and respect.  using one thing for a perfect examploe. my most recent relationship,

the one that started last year, that didn’t work out.  one of her friends found out that I helped with changing, and scooping

the litter box, and cleaning up  the cats hairballs.  she even told my girlfriend that I was a keeper, if I was willing to do

those types of things.  this same girlfriend even told her mother (after I broke up with her) that I was the first man she

truely loved sence her husband passed away.  my question then is this, if that was the case, then why oh why did I get

treated badly, and lied too?  not the whole relationship was this way, as a matter of fact most of the relationship was

grate, fun, and like I said earlier, I thought she was “the one”, but I just don’t know about things anymore.

I would have honistly liked to hook up with the most recent person that I tried to hook up with, the one that jen tried to

help me hook up with, but alas, it just wasn’t ment to be I guess.  sometimes, it just makes me wonder if I started treating

women like shit, would that help my situation. I know I couldn’t ever do that, but you know? sometimes I just wonder. 

I guess that in closing of this intery I would like to say that I am a grate person, at least most of the time. I mean we all

have our faults, and I know I have several of them, but damnet! JUST, GIVE, ME, A, CHANCE!!!!!  you never know if things

would work if you don’t try.  I say take that risk.  sometimes love is werth that risk.  and yes, if it didn’t work, a

friendship can still be salvaged.